Sometimes things work out, and sometimes they don’t. And there is nothing I can do to change that

Sometimes things work out, and sometimes they don’t. And there is nothing I can do to change that

I went to the event, the one I wrote about earlier this year. As I walked into Schiphol airport on my way there, I was so excited. This was going to change my life for the better and (as everyone had told me) I was going to love this unforgettable experience.

20 minutes into the event though, I knew I was going to hate it. Don’t get me wrong, it was interesting, and I can see how it’s life-changing for others, but there was just too much noise for me. Literally. Ever since I busted my ear on a plane, I’ve always worn earplugs when going to a concert, a show and even when watching a movie in the cinema.

I know I cannot handle sound well, so that’s why I came prepared. But this was something else. After 20 minutes I had a headache, I was homesick and my mind and body were in a constant state of moderate panic. How my coworkers’ ears still work after years of these events, is beyond my knowledge.

So I am not a changed person, but that’s okay. The only thing that bugs me is that usually, people tell you to leave your comfort zone and in the end, you’ll be happy you did. However, until now, I’ve never really been rewarded with happiness only with panic and fear.

And that just bothers me to no end. How am I supposed to expand my comfort zone if everything beyond it brings pain? But I guess there are worse things in the world, so I’ll not go on a rant about that right now.

This is just a tiny post about how I’m still alive. I hope to get back on my journey to happiness soon and maybe update my blog some more.

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Hi, glad to see you're here! I'm Noelle and I blog about finding my happiness and everything that comes with it. You can read more about me on this page.

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  • Citlali

    May 3rd, 2018 13:33

    Don't forget that it was a difficult thing for you to go there and you went despite your fear. Even if you didn't love the experience in the end, the fact that you were there and not let the panic and fear rule your life is already pretty fucking amazing (even if it might not feel so). I would say you can be really proud of yourself, I know I am proud of you <3 Getting out of your comfort zone can really help, it might not make you happy all the time, it really depends. It's about not letting your fear prevent you from doing what you love/want.

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